if you only knew

[00:07.70] I've been tryin' so hard to survive
[00:12.36]
[00:17.88] Sometimes I think that I wanna die
[00:21.69] I feel so fucking guilty 'cause God, I'm so lucky to live my life
[00:28.65] So I keep all the pain to myself
[00:32.80] Losin' faith, but nobody can tell
[00:36.62] Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
[00:40.79] So I pretend I'm fine
[00:43.31] If you only knew
[00:45.73] What my mind is tellin' me I should do
[00:49.40] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
[00:53.44] I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh
[00:58.56] If you only knew
[01:00.60] All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
[01:04.52] You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
[01:08.53] I'm sorry, but I need you, oh
[01:14.05] If you only knew
[01:16.12] I wish I was somebody else
[01:19.66] I'm constantly overwhelmed
[01:23.11] Now I'm falling again, gettin' drunk with some friends
[01:27.39] It's a silent cry for help
[01:30.36] I wanna get better, I want you to know
[01:34.28] That I can't do this on my own
[01:37.49] If you only knew
[01:40.25] What my mind is tellin' me I should do
[01:43.94] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
[01:47.64] I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh
[01:52.75] If you only knew
[01:55.15] All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
[01:58.69] You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
[02:02.14] I'm sorry, but I need you, oh
[02:07.71] Take me outta this hell
[02:10.77] Oh, somebody help
[02:14.63] Take me outta this hell
[02:18.22] Oh, I'm not myself
[02:22.24] I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I should do
[02:27.87] That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
[02:32.47] I'm too sad to cry, but I want to
[02:36.19] Oh, if you only knew
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