Do I Deserve It

[00:00.02] I can only take a compliment from a stranger
[00:03.24] I don't trust the people who are closest to me
[00:06.54] To tell the truth
[00:07.62] 'Cause what if they're just saving my feelings?
[00:10.36] And they pity me
[00:11.59] So they just say what's nice
[00:14.53] I enjoy abuse
[00:17.06] Because if you're mean to me
[00:18.66] I can trust you'll tell the truth
[00:21.99] I enjoy abuse
[00:24.23] 'Cause I feel like I deserve it
[00:26.97] Do I deserve it?
[00:28.67] Do I deserve it?
[00:32.76] I crave affection constantly, but thеn once I get it
[00:36.57] I'll remain unsatisfiеd
[00:38.40] And there's nothing I can do to fill the hole
[00:41.17] That's gaping inside me
[00:43.63] That is there because I have no real self worth
[00:47.70] I enjoy abuse
[00:50.17] Because if you're mean to me
[00:51.95] I can trust you'll tell the truth
[00:55.23] I enjoy abuse
[00:57.71] 'Cause I feel like I deserve it
[01:00.26] Do I deserve it?
[01:02.02] Do I deserve it?
[01:06.98] I've had so many friends
[01:08.62] Who've left me on a whim
[01:10.87] Suddenly cut ties for reasons that I can't explain
[01:15.39] And yet I end up feeling I'm the one to blame
[01:18.80] 'Cause if everybody loved me
[01:21.37] I must be doing something wrong, right?
[01:24.91] It's the only thing I think of at night
[01:28.53] People shouldn't make the same mistake twice
[01:40.62] But
[01:41.62] I enjoy abuse
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