Crossin' Fingers

It's late at night
I let the phone ring and ring
But no one picks up
I try to pretend
You must be asleep
I try to convince myself
But I know where you are
I know you're with him

There ain't no secrecy
I read all your diaries
I know he's more than a friend
Lovin' ain't lyin'
And lyin' ain't lovin'
You say, "it's true, I swear to you"
But you're crossin' fingers again

It's later now
I stare at the ceiling fan
I follow the blades
I wish you were dead
Or it was a dream
The two of you together
But I'm not asleep
There's a pain in my head

I'm an unworthy
Student of philosophy
My arguments won't change a thing
I mail you proofs everyday
And there's no doubt that you should stay
But you'll do what you wanna do
And I know that you'll go away

Jealousy
Is what saved me
From believing the lies
From doubting the truth

Jealousy
Is what saved me
From believing the lies
From doubting the truth

Jealousy
Is what saved me