Nothing To Forgive

I want you to know that I saw you
Sitting in the backseat, looking out across the fields
I recognise the fragments that were forming
Your face against her shoulder
Inhaling that red sweater
In the car on the way home from Inverloch

Getting in the door well after midnight
Laughter in the hallways, bodies falling into bed
You felt every sensation of that summer
The confidences kept
Feelings swept under the mat
For spring cleaning next year

And I apologise for taking so long
I'm sorry that I hid my eyes and held my tongue
My heart’s an endless ache of old mistakes I can’t unplay
But you shake your head
“There’s nothing to forgive,” you say

But I still want you to know that I saw you
Lifting like an eagle and then sinking like a stone
Stepping forward into the void alone
Unable to foresee if you will hold the same beliefs
When you finally touch down

And I apologise for taking so long
You know I was so unsure and so young
My heart it bends and breaks with old mistakes I can’t unplay
But you shake your head
“There’s nothing to forgive,” you said