I Don't Wanna Get Up

Bad Mental Health for My Low Esteem Self
Convinced my friends that I don't need help
But I admit sometimes I just wanna be well
Cause more then ever I miss my. self

My Phone Is never on
And Every day I spend in bed Again
Crying down in bottles of this vodka like its medicine
Wanna Run away
But I can never find the strength to move my legs
So I guess ill keep on running in my head again
Scared to look in mirrors cause my face is not the same
My friends don't even know me they just call me by a name
My mama asking why I'm still in bed
But I don't say how I'm feelin
Cause the silence just helps with all the pain

Bad Mental Health for My Low Esteem Self
Convinced my friends that I don't need help
But I admit sometimes I just wanna be well
Cause more then ever I miss my. self

I don't wanna mess up
Got me lookin like a fool
I ain't wanna get up
I ain't wanna go to school
I ain't even waking up
Just let me snooze
Cause you said this is over
I don't wanna grow up
Got me lookin like a fool
I ain't wanna get up
I ain't wanna go to school
I ain't even waking up
Just let me snooze
Cause you said this is over
We're Through

(?????)
Cause he keeps on showing me posts of you
I see that you got another man
Is he a poser too?
Lookin back again
I think our relationship was abuse
Looking at your wrists like hell did you get that bruise?
I think need to come over sober
Cause when I don't
I end up roll 'in over
In the grave of my head
I'm getting only older
One day I'll be dead
And you wont read this poem

Don't wanna mess up
Got me lookin like a fool
I ain't wanna get up
I ain't wanna go to school
I ain't even waking up
Just let me snooze
Cause you said this is over
I don't wanna grow up
Got me lookin like a fool
I ain't wanna get up
I ain't wanna go to school
I ain't even waking up
Just let me snooze
Cause you said this is over
We're Through (through)