Life Jacket

Start to float
I'm afraid of starting things
What if they go bad
What if they don't
Catch your breath
New responsibilities
Overload my sensory input
I'm wondering if we could
Play the quiet game
Stay Relaxed
It was just 4:39
Now it's after midnight
Nobody can waste the day like me
Chin up
There's no pretending left to do
Just watch the shadows in your room
Ask yourself how you think they got there

I can feel the water's rising
But I don't want to hear about it
People told me to be myself
I guess that was pretty mean
Mom always fastened my life jacket
But I preferred to go without it
And I'm not hiding from anyone
I'm just hiding

Fill your lungs
Beginning's the hardest part
Even making it this far
Is a mystery with the way I am
Thrash and kick
Get dressed from a pile on the floor
I'm scared to walk to the grocery store
Or of what I'll learn if I even try
It burns
Things aren't that bad honestly
But how much better could they be
If I didn't make easy things this hard
Keep your cool
If I meet the undertow
Or a sinkhole opens up below
I'd exhale the whole way down

I can feel the water's rising
But I don't want to hear about it
People told me to be myself
I guess that was pretty mean
Mom always fastened my life jacket
But I preferred to go without it
And I'm not hiding from anyone
I'm just hiding