Retrospection

Retrospection,
I'm looking at my life in reflection
The mishaps and sidetracks
and imperfections.
We turn to hit directions
on roads I never stayed on,
all my true friends and the ones
that never stayed long.
I'm conveying my thoughts,
while the beat plays on,
feeling nostalgic,
reminiscing on these gone
decisions are made wrong,
I'm thinking about them,
committing to stay strong,
no matter the outcome.
I wonder if I'd studied harder or
listened to my father
would have qualified for more,
but that's my kharma.
My mistakes were made
to educate me
and what don't kill me,
only stronger it makes me.
Pursuing my dreams now,
wherever it takes me,
whatever the case be,
the struggle that shaped me
into a better breed,
I bleed heavily on beats.
Heavily breath life into the
lungs of my memories

I'm looking back at the days gone by
Reminiscing with a smile
and a tearful eye
The past can't be change
honestly I wouldn't want to,
what makes me a man,
is everything that I've gone through.
My ups and my downs,
my trials and tribulations
of giving me my strength
for my determination.
Then what was never changed
seen from day one,
to know what you gonna got,
but remember where you came from

I sit and think of opportunities lost,
now I'm waiting at the door
when opportunity knocks.
Cause I ain't got time
to cotch (?) in front of the box.
I'm here making the most
'till opportunities stop.
In school the class clown
and the playground jester
I knew I wouldn't last for
another semester.
I messed up my football career,
didn't trust my ability,
it wasn't for the women and beer.
Now my vision is clear,
no inambitional fear,
my mission is to inspire,
many can listen and hear.
With humility I'm showing you
the shape of my heart.
No dramatics (?) fiatrics (?)
I'm playing my part.
Making a mark, my scars
grown further than flesh deep.
Can't tell them all,
cause some secrets are best kept.
The cross that I bear,
I wear around my necklace
A sign to remind me of times,
when I was reckless.

I'm looking back at the days gone by
Reminiscing with a smile
and a tearful eye
The past can't be change
honestly I wouldn't want to,
what makes me a man,
is everything that I've gone through.
My ups and my downs,
my trials and tribulations
of giving me my strength
for my determination.
Then what was never changed
seen from day one,
to know what you gonna got,
but remember where you came from

My worst fear is wishing
I could have done more
When I'm old and longing
The tomb (?)
What my life was done for.
Kick in the front door,
not ready to leave yet,
there's too much in my life
that I haven't achieved yet.
I've seen death flip my in the eye
with a cold stare,
It takes life indiscriminately,
you Don't care. There's no fear,
Like on my chin, when I grow hair. (?)
I wanted to break,
But wasn't old enough to go there.
Sneaking a guilted past
My old dear (?)
To Habits (?)
Some times I had to go bare
Far from proud,
but I'm holding my hands up.
Community service,
handcuffs and Dank druff (?)
The part of my development
from boy to man,
advise my dad gave I finally understand
Now here's a toast to my life
Everyone, I salute ya.
Commemorating the past
And Celebrating the future