I'm Not Okay

[00:00.98] Tonight the monsters in my head
[00:03.65] Are screaming so damn loud
[00:07.71] But I built walls so high
[00:10.33] So they never even make a sound
[00:15.41] It's a mask, it's a lie
[00:17.47] It's the only home I've ever known
[00:22.59] 'Cause being who I really am
[00:25.89] Has only left me more alone
[00:30.39] I am not okay
[00:35.02] And I need you to see it
[00:37.43] I have so much to say
[00:42.78] And no one to hear it
[00:44.85] The reason I keep quiet
[00:46.84] With so much at stake
[00:48.30] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
[00:52.19] You'll never understand
[00:53.82] Why it's so hard to say
[00:57.58] I'm not okay
[01:01.32]
[01:05.45] I wish I had a scar
[01:06.72] Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof
[01:12.71] That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
[01:19.72] My life's invisible abuse
[01:21.99] I'm either judged or have to hide
[01:26.87] The only symptom you can see
[01:30.25] Is I don't wanna be alive
[01:34.64] I am not okay
[01:39.71] And I need you to see it
[01:42.35] I have so much to say
[01:46.80] And no one to hear it
[01:49.38] The reason I keep quiet
[01:51.36] With so much at stake
[01:53.08] I always feel like a burden, let it silence me
[01:56.84] You'll never understand
[01:58.38] Why it's so hard to say
[02:03.22] I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell
[02:09.65] But what if it kills me
[02:11.46] If I keep it to myself?
[02:16.71] To myself
[02:21.85] I am not okay
[02:26.25] And I need you to see it
[02:28.64] I have so much to say
[02:33.58] And no one to hear it
[02:36.24] I am not okay
[02:38.09] I am not okay
[02:39.72] I'm never safe
[02:41.64] It's not a phase
[02:43.48] If I finally break
[02:45.05] Would you still stay?
[02:49.33] Tonight the monsters in my head
[02:51.23] Are screaming so damn loud
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